What I really want to do...

What I really want to do is bake, but real life and real world situations are keeping me from it. This is my calling, and the frustration of not being able to make that a reality is very disheartening. I don't mind working at a job that I don't particularly want for a while, I understand that I need to be flexible in this life. But as a middle aged woman, I need to know when it's going to be my turn? Now, this appears to be turning into a whiny bitch session, and I didn't mean for it to be that. I'll be back later today, after work, when I am facing 2 days off. If anyone reads this, have a great day! And I mean that sincerely!